I was born as a girl
child poverty. My
father died when I was 8 years of age, my mother had to go there for a wealthy
family. Daily
work of my mother was cleaning the house, grocery shopping and cooking for her
Dam, one merchant, her husband died, had two children, a son and a
daughter. Her
daughter named Minh Thu my age, probably for this reason that she Dam hired my
mother to play with her daughter. Her son was named Shun is 7 years
older than me.
I
go to school with Minh Thu, we get along with each other fertilizer made her
very happy and treat me kind to my mother. I
knew before she dare hire someone to do but Mail does not like to play with the
girl should have been fired.
Shun trade my sister should
be in the transmission. Shun
Too often we go out, seen singing and instructions for us to do all in
school. Shun
protect me and defend me when bullied by other children. Play
in my yard falls, Shun hugged me and comforted me: "good baby do not cry his
trade". I was moved to
tears. Shun
stroked my hair and wipe my tears. He said, "Ngan Khanh
new smile looks beautiful". Shun beautiful
compliment I love and laugh with him. Shun hugged me again and
then let go. Still
only 12 years old, but I vaguely seem to have a strange feeling, or,
or. I'd
fall again to be Shun hug me and wipe my tears ... I'm most sad day Shun
boarding school in the University. I
started remembering Shun. Every
weekend I was standing at the door waiting for Shun and so on year after year
and we love each time I do not know. When
I finished secondary school, Shun graduated medical doctor. I
love Shun, a true love, but never dared fully intend to marry Shun because two
families too isolated, although Shun told me that Shun will marry
me. I
believe in Shun but how dare you can accept my mother with her. But
know that, but we still love each other passionately and can not be
apart.
Fertilizer
She is a good woman, but very determined and outspoken. Looks
like she knows we love each other and that Shun wanted to marry me. One
day wait Shun Fertilizer and Minh Thu away she called my mom and said very
calmly: "My daughter sister grew up here inconvenience. Although
me and my two children are your mother and her sister but I still have to
leave.Boys and
girls should not let them be together. Within a week she find
another place to move out. I
give her enough money to eat in 6 months, then her mother can be
self-sufficient. I
just asked her and she promised me one thing is for two children I know nothing
and never contact them again. She
kept ready and wait for the day when the two of you are not at home to move out
... ". I was so surprised and
shocked. My heart
stopped, my face paled.She dared to look my mom
ordered. I saw she was
serious. Nearly
10 years of living in her home, the first time I saw where she was so
scary. My
mother was afraid of her and said in tears: "I promise and will do as
she". She nods
as fertilizer to accept my mother's promise. She looked over at me. At this time my tears were
spilled. I
think to date are far from agreeable, remote mail, remote roof with dear
childhood memories that I had forgotten ideas like home. Not that I'm
saying, my mother took my hand and shook. She dared to open his eyes to
command. I said in
tears: "I hereby promise to follow her."
The
next four Shun and Minh Thu away, my mother moved out of the house three miles
away. Before
leaving my car at home one last heart can not help sadly. It
is like a family home in childhood, how many memories, first love. I walked away but his legs so
down. I
love my I but looking drop Sùi mother wiping tears the more I love
her. Shun Oh! From now on you will be far
him, permanently away from him. For
honor, for her promise to make you not be able to see you again. I
love the fairy he thought, now here every ways. He
said the family was too poor why do you still love me, why do you want to marry
me for me to be away from him ... Standing at the door faltered for a moment and
then she and I in the car to go in the same house with her grocer spoon out the
area where my mother used to buy her vegetables. My mother's life completely
changed. How many
beautiful dreams of maiden was dissolved in smoke. I'm
planning to implement a certain professional field to help my mother, but
unfortunately things have happened so suddenly, I had no time to manage
anything. I
must go to work for a drug company secretary West. Look
professionals dressed in white and over again, I think to Shun in the suit
medical doctor, my heart could not help but pity. I never saw him
again.
My
mother from moving out in weakened health should not do anything more than
cooking. My mother cook
delicious. If I
was young, her mother opened a restaurant. Almost 10 years to
cook, her home people like fertilizer. Shun,
Fertilizer her son told her: "I have to go eat dinner in many places but not
where to eat delicious home-cooked food at home because she". What
is the chicken salad cabbage add some laksa leaves, roasted peanuts sprinkled on
top. Fried
vegetable or beef stir-fried with garlic, then mixed vegetable dish with shrimp
sauce lemon juice add little barbed cilantro, marjoram and roasted peanuts, when
my mother for more cloves or minced meat. Mannequin
banana flower dish my mother called lava banana flowers are also very
tasty. Last
week my mother or cooked crab vermicelli, noodles, nuts or sour ... special dish
also. Now
she and I go and Thuan not eat something that he likes. The more thought I injured
him. My dear
mother is gone who cook him something that he likes. I
had learned in her a few things, plans to cook for him but I barely made it away
from him. From you
without saying goodbye. I shall have you
accidentally me well Please bring.
"Date not leave
quietly
Walk silently missed only
"
Two
verses of the NT apply to me right now see how. If
one day happen to see him or Ming Shu you will have to answer. I
have been telling the truth is that we should love his mother after her
child? My mind
disorder, I can not find the spelling words. I do not say that. What
I did not blame her Dam, if I do I have to do other women? She
Dam powerful woman, how she can with my mother, a servant in the house where
friends, guests, everyone knows.Sad but I also sympathize with
her. My mother
knows his fate should not blame her Dam. Sometimes
I blame me, how could I not too high for hours fell the pain, but then I defend
myself bass. Sons Shun how can I
not love.Shun
has all conditions, new girl like me why do not despair. The heart has
reasons of its own, they say.
But
if you just love each other and away from each other, as well as the permanent
status of the world, and then dissolved, In this world you know how much
separation love with. But
I was weak, not control my body and was offering his life for my daughter
Shun. Two
months now I do not see having a period, my body started to change, my breasts
swell more, I began to worry. I tested and know I was
pregnant. I
hesitated, but then confessed to her mother. My
mother yelled as I thought, she just told me to try to preserve the health of
the pregnancy is good. My
mother thought I should honor and keep his promise not to Shun knew I was
pregnant with him. I
saw my mother sad, I asked my mother responsible for three miles to go after my
mother, my mother replied that she was not responsible, but pity me, pity
me. She
said the boys and girls to live together in the house, what then would have
happened, but she is not able to advise me.
I was nearly nine
months pregnant, my mother passed away. At
night my mother said she had a headache, I take medication for her drink and
midnight, my mother left. She
went peacefully, quietly, sad as her life, I did not expect my mom to die too
easily. My grief and
fainted away, do not know anymore ...
After
five days in the hospital, I woke up and realized. Touch
your belly belly that was falling that I was born, but did not know the baby
now. Wait
for the nurse came up to me asking about my child. The
nurse said: "The doctor saw no hope to save her life should have surgery to
remove the baby. I'm very
healthy. If you do not
know her enough to raise children. I am a girl, her face very
bright. Glad
she recovered, it is also thanks to 3 dedicated doctor has treated, he very kind
to her, treat her like a family ... ". An
hour later the nurse brought her to my friends and said: "For I am here with her
for a while and then I took him back to her room to rest because the wound is
not healed." See,
I'm very happy, loving how I see it too close. Writer
said: "The child is the greatest work of the work that I have." But just joy hit me sad
right. I only have
one body alone how to feed children. I have to go there as my
mother used to. But
my mother also has tenants but I children also red HOEN who bear to
do. Or I have someone
tell Shun. I
quickly get rid of this idea, because self-esteem, for the honor of the mother
and daughter, I can not contact her family Dam anymore. The
nurse to bring me back to the room pediatric nurse, my tears spilled
...
I
carried out in the hospital that my husband dead soldiers now just me, no
relatives, no friends, my mother just died on me here. My
situation the majority of the employees, they talk to each other I hear: "She
was young and beautiful too, poor husband died
soon
". A
few days later the boss room, the hospital's administration up to me and said:
"I'm sorry to go away from her and can make her sad, but in the records I found
her difficult circumstances. We
are afraid not to know her discharge where and how to raise the child, then she
had to give away or put in the orphanage and the child she did not know how they
get good, then
poor baby ... I have used both of them were very rich and kind, they were
married over 16 years without children, are intended for a child adoption, if
she agrees to let them feed me will
tell people. She thought
back to me. " I was so
sad, I just met you a few times now coming apart. He was right,
I did not have the means to raise the children. How
the circumstances I had to leave the road, put it in the entrance, orphanages
... If I get decent husbandry is also made for it. Go in for one
life, it may be better to stay with me. I
have done my suffering child, it's no crime to have to suffer
anymore. I can
not be selfish to keep forever with me. Very poor is suffering. Shun
love each other just because of my poor apart. Shun Oh! Because
that poor child away from him, just so poor that we have away from
us.
I
told the boss that I wanted to meet my child's adoptive parents. The next day the two men. As
the boss said, looking at both of them were very kindly made me
feel. The
husband asked me if I ask anything, I said I just wanted to have a baby and
named Thuan Khanh (ie near Thuan name and my name), but now I do not have that
right anymore. The
husband hug as wife laughed: You name Thuan, she Khanh name. One
side mother, a mother, it is true that it was arranged, then the child will get
more lucky. We consent to the words
she wishes. She also
asked what else? I
shook my head without saying a word ... In the afternoon the boss to see me to
know when I leave the hospital, they took my baby away. He
also added that she is very happy to see me not to mention money, only to name
me to show me the spirit, not the original material so the baby very
well. She
is very pretty, they hope their children will later as beautiful as
her. The last
day I was holding my baby an hour. I
hugged my child keep a treasure, I do not want to leave it again, but because of
the prestige I can not change my mind. My
tears spilled, who saw this separation must also pity. Even timed
the nurse not the heart to take the baby out of my hand. I
pinned me to the heart and put a kiss on the cheek and handed it to the
nurse. Personally
boss handed me a large canvas bag, told me to keep careful because this is
pretty much sum child to adoptive parents, enough for me to eat at 4 and 5
months as to thank me, not purchase
anything. I
thank you all the same doctor and the staff in the hospital and then go
home.
I
rent a car to straight vegetable selling her home. When we
arrived, I did not see her and see a stranger in the. I
asked, knowing that someone died so she sold vegetables scared and
left. New
tenants the east and low price should have moved on. I'm
out in the street and wondered where to go, suddenly a Honda car stopped in
front of, I realize you have general job with my sister before. After
asking her know already loves the invite me home to live with her. Meanwhile
people in the company they do not know thought I had married a
foreigner.
"Try to love the
people that live, long life through ..."
The
lyrics of the song in the "Articles name 5" awakened me to be brave and try to
endure.
A
few months later, thanks to the instructions I found my mother's grave and lit
incense on her tombstone. This
time the Saigon situation increasingly agitated and the April 1975 event
occurred. I
followed the Bach Dang Wharf Group, how lucky I was and to ship to the United
States, settling in California. I try to make my
life, both work and go to school. After
a year of additional English I enrolled in the University, four years I
graduated in electronic engineering, and I'm married to a wealthy
dentist. I go to the
dentist and see my husband. My husband is 11
years older than me, widower and has a son. We were married for almost 14
years. My husband
died three years ago. I
continue to just do the old dental center my husband has to work for electronics
companies. Life
has been busy but very complete physical because there are two sources of
income. I
think poor time it used to be, remember to separate mother and daughter heart
not out of pity. I've
searched everywhere but did not know how my child is now, while in Vietnam or
the U.S.? I have search
through Red Cross but not out. I pray day and night to
meet my daughter ...
I
visit annually and be introduced to Nguyen Trong Toan doctor specializing in
cardiology. Listen
to the doctors I remembered the doctor who saved my life in ancient Vietnamese
hospital. After
examination and medication, I told my Primary doctor who is treating doctor
nearly 25 years ago .. Check out my doctor is very
happy. Fortunately,
I was the last customer, so he had plenty of time to talk to me. Toan
doctor told me two years ago in meetings of the national physician in Texas he
met Shun, my old lover. Listen
to my Shun silent name but trying to keep calm to hear: "Shun the same class as
each other but not close. I saw her go out with
Shun several times to remember. I
treat her and think Shun abandoned you, so I avoid not want to say anything to
anyone, even at her birth in the hospital, too. Last
public meeting in Texas natural Shun told me Pure love her mother but was
prevented and there is no way to meet her. After
she went and Shun mad mother should not get married, forever after that lady so
sad that the new Shun married. Shun
has so far had no children and divorced spouses as incompatible. Hear
me she was pregnant with my Shun and the treatment she, Shun touched
it. Shun
merchants sister and his children you have to be up for adoption to people, do
not know how this now. Shun
mother the news is sad, she was remorseful for her actions to her only child
abandonment, she is over 80 years old still no baby ... ". Listen
to the story of my old heart to bear and tears. Toan
doctor asked me if I agreed to tell Shun met me, I told the doctor just do not
say anything, the old story into the past, it is necessary to find our
child. I hello doctor Toan
and to of, heart sad immense bring:
Know him well
enough
Said
that much still all
To go without saying
goodbye
I know I always double
the
*
Every year look chlorotic
leaf
The
President recalled at heart to
Brother! Try to bring
to
Arouse
love was how to prevent
*
Once
love was too hard
Prompted to do more about his dear
old
My heart
though thin ice
Keep in children around the ball
a
*
Knowing he had
enough
I now
also still lonely
How many memories, how
painful
And silently crying, crying out
...
Anyway I do not
want to continue writing poetry sad. I return to my current
life. I do not
have my husband should love his son as a child. Tan (my husband and son's
name) very precious to me. But
the practice of doctors but all stories, Tan brought to consult
parents. A
on Tan breeze with Tan know a girl named Thuan Khanh less Tan 4
years. Currently
Thuan Khanh pharmacists, family care pharmacy. Tan Thuan Khanh met
through commercial services. Listen
son, said to Thuan Khanh me nervous, if the same name, same old? Thuan Khanh is my
daughter? I
asked my son to see family Thuan Khanh how, then known Thuan Khanh father died
just over 70 years old mother. Very
rich, all the following properties will be of Thuan Khanh all. I'm a
little strange, if the mother is not it mother can have the same
name. I told my son to
Thuan Khanh home I play. Meet
Thuan Khanh My hunch now is my baby girl. Just like my face just like
Shun. Can
not stop my heart hugged Thuan Khanh and exclaimed: "Oh! mother
here, "but then I remembered, is not yet time mother expressed feelings should
have let go of Thuan Khanh and apologized:" I'm sorry, at the doctor that I was
so cute and you love " . Thuan Khanh said: "No
doctor. Beloved uncle
and for home visits your child very happy. Prior
to I'm scared, now that your happy mother and son at home, I was
blessed. First
see your new but feels like to see a long time ago ". My
heart calmed down, I silently thanked his foster mother should have taught my
daughter's death anniversary, taught how to speak wisely and
respectfully. Tan
that she loved you, so happy, he smiled at the Thuan Khanh. I keep Thuan Khanh
meal. The
first time I cooked dinner for my daughter to eat. I
asked briefly about those days of Thuan Khanh, I avoid more afraid of my
daughter thinks I'm curious. Thank the
deities for help for my mother to see each other again ...
When
Thuan Khanh I asked my son how scheduled programs, Tan told me months later they
asked to do crowd and 4 months before getting married.Thuan Khanh
early to worry because she was old, want your mother to be
happy.
Date
crowd asked a favorable way. My daughter's foster
mother did not recognize me. Maybe
she did not expect this poor old girl is with her. I
realized she Thuan but remained silent not let anyone know I am a native of
Thuan Khanh let my children do not have to bother and avoid causing grief for
her mother, my benefactor. I am delighted to
prepare for the wedding. I'm
nervous to wedding husband and both my daughter and me.
Four months passed so quickly. The wedding of my
children is very important organizations. Nearly 700 guests attended. My daughter is gorgeous in the
wedding dress. Many
commented that mother-in-law to daughter-in-law looks a lot like each other as
mother and daughter, it is likely to be very together. I
am happy to think from now my daughter will be in the same house with me, and I
will devote some time to take care of my daughter. Gold
strike our ears as always hear greetings happy ...
Completed
two wedding honeymoon, I was home alone. So
too worried and busy wedding day, I find a bit tired. I
fear heart problems as before should go see your family doctor, but the new
arrival said the doctor was on vacation and he would ask others to temporarily
replace a few days. Since
late and unscheduled so I was the last examination. The nurse weighed and test the
temperature. My
heart rate and temperature normal. I was
waiting for a while, opening Shun entered. My unexpected encounter Shun
exclaimed: "You!". Shun was surprised, hugged
me: "You! Did not
expect to see you here, I'm happy too! ". Shun telling the miss
and I apologize. Shun said:
"I do not think that he had a child together. From
listening to his full talk about the physician you sad and sorry
too. When
laying alone I do get along ... ". I told Shun: "Forget the
old days." Now
everyone has a private life, and meet each other and you is enough. I'm not angry
at anyone, just wanted everything to go away. Shun
asked me about our daughter, I said Thuan Khanh now very happy but longish
story, will tell Shun later. Shun
glad to see the girls name is the name Thuan and Khanh name. Knowing
I still single now Shun proposed reunion with him. Although
still in love with Shun but I'm afraid, once broke up was too hard, now I'm
living in peace and happiness with newfound daughter, I do not want disturbance
in life should havedeclined. Not approved Shun
seemed disappointed. A
moment later Shun inquired about my mother, knowing my mother passed away he
lowered his head to hide her emotions and said Dam now very severe illness,
health is day by day. She
was lying in the hospital, if I ignore the old story, she was so
happy. Shun
suggested fertilizer wanted me to go to the hospital to visit her, I accepted
the invitation.
The
next day I go to the hospital to see Shun and Minh Thu wife was
there.Minh Thu to see me so
happy. Minh Thu ask my
address and invited to play.Chatted
for a while, Shun and Minh Thu wife out for me to talk to her Dam. I held her thin hand and
asked:
- She remembers he
does not, he is Ngan Khanh?
Fertilizer
she whispered:
Ngan Khanh! How can I forget you. I hope you forgive me. Because I was so
severely that her children have to suffer. I also heard she had
died. Poor Persia. Well I'll see
you on the other side of the world to apologize to her.
Fertilizer she continued:
- He was already punished me. There
are only grandchildren are excluded it, now I do not have any children
inside. Minh Thu husband
married a long time ago not to have children.
Saying
she spilled tears for remorse makes me sad contagious. A trembling voice she continued:
- I do not live anymore and
was going to leave. I ask you
one thing if you can help me?
I
shook her hand Dam:
- Please just
said.
Three miles
trying to get the remaining energy punctuated each sentence:
-
I hope I accepted the invitation to reunite with your son, so your new peace of
mind to go. Shun love her. Shun
was married but always thought I should the couple spent
together.
Her eyes looked at me as
if begging weak fertilizer. I
love her as the mother.Nearly
10 years in love with each other nonetheless profound, it is hard to deny the
request of a person is going to die as she. I was silent
thought for a moment and then said in emotion:
- Yes, I would like to hear his
uncle.
Fertilizer She
smiled, her eyes half open as silently thanked me. Interim Shun and Minh Thu
husband enters. She
dress holding hands Shun to up my hands, a moment later her eyes closed and
breathing weakened. Nurses rush
to the doctor. Me and Shun stood away
for nurses to work. I
wipe the tears for Shun and gripped his hand, choked her look from protein is
lim ...
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